If you’ve been stalkingfollowing my blog for any time- you know there are a few big deals heading my way. One- moving out of this great city and setting up shop elsewhere. I’ve been here since I was 7 and you can all do the math on 4 fuckity 0 – 7. I don’t think I know all of Austin yet. Just today coming back from lunch with some awesome work friends- I didn’t know where I was- a whole new place I never knew existed. So much more to explore here. I will have to do that as a tourist when I come back to visit. I feel a little sad leaving- like I’m kissing an old friend good bye.
The Girl is not moving because her life is squarely here and she’s off to school in the fall. This is the hardest part for me. It’s been 18 years of me and her & her and me. This freaks me out. Freaks. Me. Out. Mostly because as bad ass as I strive to be- living hours away from The Girl kicks me over the mildly worried side of the line to the freak the fuck out side. It kicks me hard- right in the uterus. But you know what that kid said to me after I asked her for the 2,000,000,000,000 time if she is SURE she will be ok? She said, “Mom, you’ve put everything on hold for me your whole life- I want you to go do this for you. I’m proud of you for doing this even though you are scared to be away from me. YOU said to not be afraid to move on- so go. I will be ok”. She’s only 18. How did she get so smart?
There are two things I have always wanted to be but never did it for a million reasons. Sometimes because I thought maybe I would fall on my face and be an epic embarrassment to me and the planet. But mostly I needed a steady income. Something safe and a guaranteed- that the hours outside of Mon-Fri from 8-5 would be for my daughter. Period. Mission accomplished. I always had my heart set on being a lawyer- but now I am very glad I didn’t follow that path. The other- well i’m doing it now- I am going to write full time. I have a couple of other ventures ahead of me. I will help launch The Man’s real estate brokerage in the new city. That is his calling- I have never seen anyone make so many impossible transactions happen. He has a natural gift for the art of the deal. But I will spend most of my time writing. This blog, the truth about being 40 and now a children’s book in the work. I just launched a small publishing company and you will read more about that later. You have front row tickets to my epic adventure- feel free to laugh at/with me, pipe in with advice and share my work. All of you Kittens that have been reading along have inspired me- both with your praise and your nasty grams- because whether I made you laugh, made you cry or pissed you off- I got you. And that means the world to me.
So it is time. Job- I quit you. This girl is going to go blaze a path in bad ass stilettos.